The qvPapi Is In!
As your Dear Papi, I'd like to say that it's great
to be here with you! I know that life can be challenging at times,
but no matter what you're going through, or what's on your mind,
talk to me-even if it includes boy troubles. E-mail me at DearPapi@qvMagazine.com.
Well, this might sound crazy because I'm only 13 years old. My
problem is that I am in love with a guy who is straight. He has
his head shaved, a fit body, and is tall. He is really fine!
I really want him to be mine, not because he looks good, but
because I love him for who he is. I am sure that this is not
a crush or an obsession, but love. What should I do?
You are at a special age when you are now discovering your sexuality.
And if you are in love with a straight guy, then I want you to
think about what's happening here. I want you to fall in love,
but I want you to fall in love with someone who you know, for
sure, will be there to give it back to you. Of course, if he's
straight, then he won't be able to give you the love that you
need and deserve. And I don't want to see you hurt so consider
this guy as a friend-and just a friend, mijo. Remember that you
are still young, and there'll be plenty of chances to meet more
guys. So have fun with your youth, concentrate in school, always
feel proud to be who you are, and give your heart to someone
who will be there to give it back to you!
Why does the QV community have so much sexual content? Every
QV pride, every popular dance/party just reveals naked men all
the time. Why can't we just express ourselves with class and
respect, rather than showing our asses off to turn a few heads?
How can we expect society to accept us if we express ourselves
this way to each other? I am proud of who I am, but at the same
time, I feel the community does not represent me. And I know
for a fact there are others out there like me. -Benji
There are many possible reasons why the QV community has so
much sexual content. It could be that since QVs have repressed
their sexuality for so long, that when they are given the opportunity
to let it out, they let it out in full force. Or it could be
the obvious and that is-sex simply sells, and that's where you
get the QV advertisers showing half-naked guys to sell you something.
Regardless of the reasons above, how do we, as a community, change
our image, if we so choose to? We can start, for example, in
the media, by start showing QV people as regular people. That
means, showing QV people who enjoy sex, but whose lives don't
fully revolve around it. And you'll be glad to know that these
"clean" images are becoming more widespread and can
be seen in magazines like Hero, Out, The Advocate, etc. and also
on shows like "Will and Grace."
I've been dating this guy for a year now. When I first met him,
I immediately told him I was HIV+. He still wanted to date me
and be with me. For the first couple of months, we had a terrific
relationship, then after a few more months, we started having
fights. We would fight and then make up by having sex-but we
wouldn't use a condom. It was our way of making up, to show that
we really wanted to get back together and be together. But after
a lot of fights, and making up, I'm realizing that he's the wrong
guy for me. I'm afraid to break up because if I gave him HIV,
I would never be able to forgive myself. I feel I'm stuck in
this relationship out of guilt. What should I do?
If your heart is telling you that the guy you are dating is not
the one for you, then consider moving on. I know you feel guilty
that you might have given him the HIV virus, but you don't know
if you gave it to him, for sure. And even if he gets tested and
comes out positive, you should not "beat yourself up"
as he played a part of that decision to have sex without a condom.
Not to mention, he was fully aware of the risks involved in the
situation! In any case, talk to him now and let him know how
you feel, and whatever you do, don't let your guilt keep you
in a relationship where your heart doesn't want to be. Good luck,
For the first time in my life, I'm in love with this one guy.
We are both happy and in love, but the only thing I hate most
about being QV is that we have to hide from people when we kiss
or have a close hug. You know what I mean? Today, for example,
when he came to visit me, I wanted to give him a big kiss, but
I couldn't because my family was there.
I understand where you are coming from. Being in love and not
being able to even hold hands in public can be difficult. Believe
it or not, we are beginning to witness some positive changes
for the QV community as we speak. Historically, issues like
QV marriage weren't even discussed in public-but now it's among
the most discussed social issues. Of course, it might look like
things aren't moving as fast as they could, but at least, we're
moving in the right direction. My advice to you, if you are out
to your family, is to let them know that, just like what straight
people can do, it should be okay for you to be able to show your
affection to your partner around your family.
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